I can’t fucking believe myself. As much as I like to think the past is the past, I know it’s not and I know I’m always going to be vunerable to old feelings. Fuckmesideways.

I miss your hugs.

It’s tough when you’re faced with a difficult decision. If I do this, it may be harmless, it may help him. 

But if it doesn’t work, it was a mistake, then old feelings may come back and I’ll become vunerable. Or it will blow it for him with someone else. I have no idea.